Interesting video. I remembered being at my lowest, and wanted out on marriage. I know that divorce will just ruin me and my life anyways, won't make it any better.
That feeling of "I told you so," from God is starting to rub out at me. Just imagining what my life could have been if I had not gotten married so soon. Looking at the carefree lives of my youth group, makes me miss them and wish I was able to hang out with them again. Just talking to them brings me good memories. Of course I could still hang out with them, but it's harder when you've got a husband who's not into those kinds of stuff.=( So it doesn't look good to people when you're seen w/out the hub at single's function or any other youth/church functions. There are lots of couples who interact with the singles, but my hubby's always on the sidelines when I'm out talking to people. Seems like he's always waiting for me. Pisses me off that he doesn't know how to mingle with others. It looks as though my husband and I are totally different from each other. When it's my duty to be there at church, and the hubby doesn't feel that he wants to come, I end up coming alone or with my daughter. To me, I have no patience to deal with that kind of attitude. If you don't want to be a part of my life, then that's fine, I'm not going to sit and beg.
I'm sure others have wondered if we're both going through a difficult time now that I'm always by myself. Some of you may know that he dissed me on Valentines Night because he just wasn't interested in being a part of something that's not worth celebrating. What a 'effner! And although, my reasons of going was just to help out, it's still a night where people can come together and celebrate the love that couples only get to celebrate once a year. That night I got ready, and bolted out the doors before he had a chance to say anything. I remembered, he was like, "Ey, Babe," before I closed the doors behind me.
Sometimes, it just seems like he's coming to church because it's my church. He doesn't know how to view it as HIS church too.
I told him that if he doesn't show or want to be an active member at our church, then he needs to go find a church in which we both will be active together. But I KNOW for a FACT that he's going to go join one of them big CMA church's where nobody knows who you are and you can come whenever you want. NOPE! Not me! I don't' take Christianity lightly. Having faith and taking time to do or be involve in God's work is a must for me. Why isn't it a must for him? It's hard dealing with a liberal Christian, but I hope in time, he'll change.
I understand now of what I got myself into. I could have waited, I should have waited for marriage. God had much better plans for me. But I was too selfish and wanted what I thought would make me happy. And now, I'm living with the consequence. The only thing I can do now is direct my path towards the new path in which God has in stored for me.
That feeling of "I told you so," from God is starting to rub out at me. Just imagining what my life could have been if I had not gotten married so soon. Looking at the carefree lives of my youth group, makes me miss them and wish I was able to hang out with them again. Just talking to them brings me good memories. Of course I could still hang out with them, but it's harder when you've got a husband who's not into those kinds of stuff.=( So it doesn't look good to people when you're seen w/out the hub at single's function or any other youth/church functions. There are lots of couples who interact with the singles, but my hubby's always on the sidelines when I'm out talking to people. Seems like he's always waiting for me. Pisses me off that he doesn't know how to mingle with others. It looks as though my husband and I are totally different from each other. When it's my duty to be there at church, and the hubby doesn't feel that he wants to come, I end up coming alone or with my daughter. To me, I have no patience to deal with that kind of attitude. If you don't want to be a part of my life, then that's fine, I'm not going to sit and beg.
I'm sure others have wondered if we're both going through a difficult time now that I'm always by myself. Some of you may know that he dissed me on Valentines Night because he just wasn't interested in being a part of something that's not worth celebrating. What a 'effner! And although, my reasons of going was just to help out, it's still a night where people can come together and celebrate the love that couples only get to celebrate once a year. That night I got ready, and bolted out the doors before he had a chance to say anything. I remembered, he was like, "Ey, Babe," before I closed the doors behind me.
Sometimes, it just seems like he's coming to church because it's my church. He doesn't know how to view it as HIS church too.
I told him that if he doesn't show or want to be an active member at our church, then he needs to go find a church in which we both will be active together. But I KNOW for a FACT that he's going to go join one of them big CMA church's where nobody knows who you are and you can come whenever you want. NOPE! Not me! I don't' take Christianity lightly. Having faith and taking time to do or be involve in God's work is a must for me. Why isn't it a must for him? It's hard dealing with a liberal Christian, but I hope in time, he'll change.
I understand now of what I got myself into. I could have waited, I should have waited for marriage. God had much better plans for me. But I was too selfish and wanted what I thought would make me happy. And now, I'm living with the consequence. The only thing I can do now is direct my path towards the new path in which God has in stored for me.