Oh how I miss blogging. It's getting harder and harder to find time for this. I will come back. Don't worry!! My sweetie pie's bday party is this Saturday at Pump It Up! I bought a delicious lemon raspberry torte cake for her=) I'm excited! I will post pictures, I promose!!
I will be graduating in two weeks! After that I will have more time to blog!! It's extremely weird that lately I've been recieving so many hits! I'm not sure if there's a glitch in the system, but my hits are way higher than before. Please be patient with me. We're in the process of getting a new computer, or fixing ours... not sure yet. But until then, visit my FB page. I hope everyone of you will have a wonderful Christmas and New Year!
I'm sorry, my web page feels so neglected. I've just been so busy this quarter. My computer's way too slow due to all the viruses and bugs that's on there, that I can't find the time to upload any pics.
Well, I used my job position as an intern. We're getting so busy here at work. I get soo sleepy here though. It's all to repetive work. But I need the experience, so that's good for now. I realized that the only interesting cases are criminal ones. I think that's the field I want to pursue in. Everything else is just too boring, complex to emotional. -That it makes legal work so bland. My Annie is mean. She hits me and screams at me. Oh gosh... how I'm dreading her adolescent years to come=O. But she's soo emotional too. haha... Kai and I are doing good. =) I hate math! Especially all those stupid brain teaser questions and funky looking characters! It's fun if I have time for it, but I DON'T! I just want simple equations!! I don't care for systems and matrices! What on earth is a binomial experiment? I HATE MATH with a passion. I can't believe I have to resort to a tutor now=( WHY OH WHY DID I HAVE TO SWITCH MY STUPID PROGRAM???? If I would have stayed at the Associates level, I wouldn't have to take these stupid courses!!
Oct. 13, marks our 9 years together! And to this very day, I still daydream about him=)
It takes so much effort just to jot down some of my thoughts. So I'll quickly recap what's been going on. My husband's paternal grandmother just passed a way 3 weeks ago. She just turned 90 years old. We flew to Ca to attend the Funeral. It was so nice seeing everyone again. I loved Kai's grandma. She was truely a great grandma. I'll remember her words she's said about me and hold true to the heart. The one thing I missed so much about CA is his family. Especially all the girls in his big old Yang clan family. They are the greatest people to ever meet!
I'll write more later. I start my intern this week. And my two other classes too. I have not even bought my books yet! Gosh... I have so much things to do and get done!!! Side note.... I wonder why Kai has been super nice to me lately? I think he wants another child =0 Kai wants me to lose weight. I don't really want to. If I can't spot reduce, I'd rather not lose any at all. Toning up is the only thing I can do. But I'd still be too fat for him. I need a personal trainer to help me!
I get to act immature today. I'm in a rush,... so this will not make much sense to you all. She called me a little girl, I called her an ugly mut. In the end, she's the one that's crying! Stupid girl on XBOX wanted to start something with me. She messaged my husband pretending that they've been chatting. I messaged her back and she goes on and on about how much he loves her and not me. She told me to google her ugly self mut-looking face because she claims she looks better than me. I made fun of her voice saying that she sounded like a fat black girl, and that my husband is not into that. She got mad and said she was not fat, but skinny instead. And that she's half black/Chinese and that she thinks she's better looking than me. She told me to cry my eyes out when I see her hott looking picture. I told her, I did cry my eyes out laughing so hard at her elf monkey looking face. She got mad and said that she'd kick my ass in the game Street Fighter IV. I told her I'd kick her skinny ass in real life. She continues on talking about how much my husband loved her instead.-Ignoring all her BS, I continue to talk about how ugly looking she was and that she deceived my husband with her fake avatar pic. She got really mad and said she's going to get my husband's gamer tag and find people to mess me up. I continue to laugh at her telling her, that her Geeky Street Fighting Possees ain't going to do shit. Nobody can get your damn ADDY just by your Gamertag, except if you're the authorities. She felt stupid. And got her pimp to gang up on me instead. He said that he was going to come rape me and that I better say sorry to her if I don't want to get rape. I laughed at him. He threatened me again.... I laughed again. I told him that I'm sorry that she's so butt ugly, she looks like an elf. He got mad, but laughed. He said that he doesn't know how to look up my address, but that his boy knows how to and he's right there with him. I continue to laugh. Then he said, You better say sorry, or else I'm coming over. I laughed and just said. Good bye, guess what? I submitted complaint of all your threat messages to those LIVE XBOX people and when they terminate your 5 years worth of points and the money you put into this account, you'll be sorry. They felt stupid and never wrote back. STUPID KIDS. Anyway, this is childish, but I can def. handle myself. I don't need Kai to save me nor solve this problem. He brought it upon himself to mess with lowlives who sit at home all day playing childish games. So let me stoop down to his level and see how he feels when I act like this! Summer is coming to an end!=( But really who cares. It's not like we did anything worthwhile remembering. We've been such a boring couple ever since we became husband and wife. I've been going out here and there. But it's not the same w/out your companion there with you. Kai's such an old fogey. He never wants to do anything except play video games!! Or take Annie out to the park. He claims he's trying to save money by not going out, but I don't understand it when his cousin calls him to go up North, he gets all excited like it's the funnest trip ever and he has to go. But when I suggest, "hey, let's go up north to Duluth, he'd be like, "For what? What's over there? It'll be boring!" Goodness! I sure blew up on him! It's fun when his cousin goes, but when I suggest it, it's boring? Ugh,
I told my husband that he needs to go out into the world and make some real friends. Friends who'll respect you and your family and will love your spouse as their own sister. And friends who'll always be there for you. Then he goes on and says "blah blah blah, it's your family in the end that'll be there for you, blah blah." But if that was the case,...then why isn't he as close to him fam as he claims? We go back home to CA, and not once does he ever lift up a finger to call his cousins to come hang out, or tell them he's in town and wants to go visit! It's always them calling. When his family does something FUN together, he hides away from the gathering. UGH. I told him, in the end, when we're old like our parents, don't expect your own mom and pops to be the ones calling relatives to come join us when we do special events. If you're not going to make friends now, you're going to be alone in the end. Anywho, that's just my vent of the day. Other than that, my bunny has been on my mind lately. Oh, I love her so! I thank God everyday what a great gift he has given me. I miss her so much everyday while I'm at work. Whenever I come home, I would hug and kiss her and look at her fall asleep every night. She's such a good girl at going to sleep. It's probably because of our routine: I'll grab her a small bottle of milk. Give her one of her blankys and tells her gently: "Goodniye! Swee-dreams! I lah u!" And she repeats it back to me, as I'm singing to her. We just took on a death case with 4 injured. After a while, you start to emotionally attach yourself to these clients. There was one that will always make my heart cry evertime I see the parents of the toddler Hmong girl who was struck and killed by a truck when she ran after her dad. I always think of my little girl and my family whenever I see death cases. About a week ago, an attorney mailed some documents along with photos to us. As I was opening the mail, and flipping through the pages, I saw an old Hmong man lying on the street with his head buried into the cement. He was an old man walking to the store, when a school bus ran him over. I was pretty shock and devastated when I saw those pictures. There was blood and brain splattered everywhere. That whole day, I was pretty shaken up, because even though they're just photos, it's very chilling to look at considering that person died. Even in videos, I cannot bear to watch those gruesome videos where things went wrong and that person got injured or killed. My husband watches those quite often and if I come across them, I just look away. I can't bare to see it. Life is so precious, and everyday I remember to thank God for not taking the wonderful people in my life away yet. Kai and I have decided to lease our apt. for one more year. The rent did not go up, and we both love it here. So we're staying one more year again!! It'll be depressing driving an hour to work back and fourth, but I'll survive! As far as school goes, I've dropped the BS program. One of the paralegal's I talked with at work went to the same college and highly recommended that I not waste anymore money putting me in debt when the program's not even ABA approved. That's another 20 grand added onto my 45grand. Man stupid school. I knew I should have just stuck to a community college! Even if I do get a great job with my BS degree, the pay wouldn't be as high as a person who did graduate from an ABA approved program. So she has a point there. Experience is what will get me to a higher level, and that's what I'm doing. All I need now for my Associates is just an intern, which my attorney saids I can def. use my job as an intern! Has been quiet and low keyed for my little fam. I'm fine with that though. We're both trying to save $$$ for my school loans along with many other expenses that will come about. Our lease will be up in Nov. and it's so hard deciding if we want to move back to St. Paul, or stay where we're at. If we move to StP, my daughter will have to be in daycare for three hours. And knowing how my daughter is around strangers, I know how hard it will be on her and me. I'm soo not ready to endure that feeling of leaving her to other people besides my own family members. Just thinking about it makes me teary. I'm way too attached. If we stay in Minnetonka, I know how much I will dread the hour long drive home everyday, especially in the snow, who knows how long it'll take me to get home. Gosh, what to do. What to do.? Work has been great. I'm catching on and learning new things everyday. Quite a few clients have yelled at me for not relaying messages to our investigator, -even though I have, it's not my fault Tou doesn't return their calls. But it sure is toughening me up in the legal field!! I get emotional quite a bit when I come across sad cases, Especially in the death cases and how children are involved. Lately, I've been missing my husband like crazy. Must be our bad hours or my weird hormones. I go through these vulnerable phases before my period. It's so weird. But, it's hard sleeping with just me and Annie home. Some days I wouldn't be able to sleep until 2am, when he comes home from work. I hate our work hours, but we need to sacrifice in order to live well later. Here are some photos of me and Annie strolling around Centennial Lakes. Beautiful place for couples to come hang out, especially at night where all the beautiful night lights come out. Enjoy. Kai was working that day, so it was just us and my two nyabs. |